There are times in your life when you feel that your life is zoned out and stuck. Everybody around you has a normal life and it is just you who has all the problems in the world, which is obviously not the case. But there are times when you don’t act wise and your mind wanders irrationally. You see all your friends settling down and you become sad for your life and its murky state. You don’t know where to go, who to approach and where to vent out. The only people who still stand by your side and support you like a wall are your real friends and family.
The past year hasn’t been very good for me. I was confused, disturbed and in a lot of pain. I didn’t know where to go and what to do. Normally I avoid sharing my problems with my parents as I don’t want them to worry about me. More than that I don’t want them to think that I am not capable enough to handle my problems all by myself. My care for them and my self respect goes hand in hand. But at times the situation goes out of your hand and you seek help. I try to sort things as much as I can but when in dire need I don’t hesitate in asking for help and guidance.
After hours of cogitation I reached out to my family, to be precise to my mom. I told her everything. Even if you are faulty your parents would never blame you for anything, for they are your parents and you can never be wrong in their eyes. The beauty is that they would make you realize your mistakes without making you feel small and pitying on you.
My mother is an epitome of hope and optimism. She made me understand that everything happens for a reason. It happened because it has to happen. It would have happened even If it wasn’t for you. It would have happened anyway. She enlightened me with a lot of Srimad Bhagavad-Gita wisdom, but I kept sticking to the fact that it was my mistake and I ruined it all. I wasn’t able to forgive myself no matter how hard I tried. She then sat my side and said ” no amount of guilt can change the past and no amount of worry can change the future“. It stuck me real hard and I decided that I would pull up my socks and look forward to the beautiful life that God has bestowed me with.
I still remember those critical times and think how would difficult it would have been without her. Probably difficult doesn’t even begin to describe the situation. The fact that she stick to me and we were #together in those times worked wonder for me. Those long and simple conversations with her gave me the courage and strength to come out of my guilt and face the world. I cannot thank her enough for standing by me. She was is and will always be my best friend, confidant, philosopher and guide.