I got up at 5:45 in the morning. With absolutely no idea about the time, I walked into my kitchen and from there I saw the sunrise and that’s when I realized that it was quite early in the morning. I clicked a few pictures, drank some water and got back to my bed. Half an hour later I again got up and discovered something that I never want to, the period has arrived. Looking forward to a day of stomach ache and mood swings.
Today I am also shooting one video with GoPro. I have one concept in my head for which I am shooting today, let us hope the clips get edited and the final project witnesses the light of the day.
We lost Irfan Khan today.
It is indeed a huge loss for the industry but for reasons unknown it feels like a personal loss too. One scroll on twitter timeline and I realized that I am not the only one feeling like this. Guess this is what it is like to touch lives with your work. The diverse body of his work speaks volumes about his tenacity not just as an actor but as a human being as well. I must have listened to a hundred songs featuring him ever since I learnt the news of his demise. I pray to God to give the bereaved family enough strength to get through this tough time. Irfan Khan, you will be forever missed. So far 2020 has been a shitty year and surely I am never going to miss this year.
Earlier today I was also thinking about memories.
What are we if not for our memories? Imagine waking up one fine morning and not remembering anything about yesterday. What would be life without memories? I was going through my hard disk today and looking at the old photos and videos I was transported back in time. The repertoire acted like an accelerant and made me remember so many moments. It not even funny how time travels so fast. Also, how stupid was I to do certain things that I did, what the hell was I thinking.
I remember telling Tushar one day how I often think that I shouldn’t have done a few things that I did in the past. To which he would reply (with all the calmness in the world on his face)
“Rubu, you are what you are today only because of the things that you did in the past. Good, bad, average, everything is taken into account into moulding you and making you the person that you are right now.”
I hate it when he is right, but he is right pretty much all the time. I am so fortunate to have Tushar in my life, he is like a balance in my life. Every time things go south all I do is give him a call. He has some hidden prowess of making everything better. God bless this boy and keep him healthy and happy forever.
This blog is part of free writing practice, which essentially means that you write everything that comes in your mind until you hit 500-word count.
Earlier blogs:
First Blog: Lock-down scribbling – Talking about Emergency Fund – Free Writing Part 1
Second Blog: Lock-down scribbling – Books, Productivity and Guilt-Free Writing Part 2
Third Blog: Lock-down scribbling – Introducing New Practices – Free Writing Part 3
Fourth Blog: Lock-down scribbling – Seeking Name Suggestions – Free Writing Part 4